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  For You

  © 2013 Mimi Strong

  Description: Aubrey is on the run from her past, pretending her little sister is her daughter. Sawyer senses that his life would be better with Aubrey in it, and tries to convince her in his own way.

  Length: Full-length novel of 77,000 words.

  New Adult Contemporary Romance: Due to sexual content, this book is not intended for readers under the age of 18.

  WARNING: Contains violence, graphic sex, drug use, and criminal activity.

  Chapter One

  Dear Mom:

  Bell is growing like a sunflower. I bought her some new shoes, a size and a half larger than the last pair, but she insists on wearing the old ones with her toes sticking out of the holes. She told me to return the new ones and put the money into our Disneyland fund, but what she doesn't know is there is no fund.

  I made up the Disneyland thing so she wouldn't know the real reason we don't order pizza delivery like other people do.

  Before we found our current place, we spent a month couch-surfing, and two nights sleeping in the car when there was nowhere else to go. The second morning was really cold, and Bell drew faces in the fog on the glass.

  I looked up your brother, and he helped us find an apartment that's too good to be real. Bell has her own bedroom, and it's called Princess Land.

  The funny thing is, your brother didn't believe I was real. He'd never even heard my name before the day I knocked on his door.

  I hope you're still alive.

  Aubrey

  The guy with the messed-up tattoos kept staring at the gold ring on my finger, like he knew it was a lie. Every time I came by to check on him at his corner table, he'd look up at me expectantly. Confess, his beautiful moss-green eyes said. Confess.

  “Another beer?” I rested the round tray against my hip like a professional. I'd barely been inside a bar before, and now I was waiting tables like an expert.

  “Why are you so familiar?” He set down his pen, closed his sketch book, and shook out his right hand. The sinews of his forearm flexed beneath his strange tattoo. It was a seascape, with an octopus and other creatures. The black lines were clean and straight, but the blue and green made no sense, crossing over the lines randomly.

  Was the new tattoo a cover-up of something else, and not yet finished? There was a more logical answer, though, and it was on the edge of my mind.

  “Cat got your tongue? Who are you?” he asked.

  Without taking my eyes off the blue-smudged octopus, I muttered, “I'm nobody. I'm new here.”

  “But you look like someone I know. Why is that?”

  I swallowed hard and jerked my eyes to meet his. Dark, wavy hair framed a handsome face with high cheekbones. And those eyes. They were like the bottom of the sea, like my worst nightmares and darkest dreams.

  He continued, “Maybe if you smiled for once, I could figure out who you remind me of. Do you ever smile? Are you a happy girl with a sad face, or are you sad through and through?”

  “Why are your tattoos so messed up?”

  He rolled his one sleeve up over his bicep, revealing a pair of seahorses, scribbled over in orange and pink.

  “The male seahorse gives birth to the young,” he said.

  “Everybody knows that.”

  He chuckled. “Every hot girl I meet is a marine biologist.”

  As he pushed his dark hair away from his eyes, the inside of one arm flashed its secret—a name, scrawled in marker: Toby.

  “I get it,” I said. “You fell asleep, and some little kid colored in your tattoos with markers.”

  “You're half right. I wasn't asleep.”

  “Is the kid your son?”

  He laughed, loud, then pretended to wipe a tear from his eye. “C'mon, do I look like I have a kid?” He stretched his arms out for us both to admire. “The colors are from my nephew.”

  “Toby,” I said. He seemed confused, so I pointed to the signature, accidentally touching him with my fingertip. “He signed his masterpiece.”

  The stranger smiled, revealing perfect, straight teeth. Good breeding. Or money. I wondered what his parents thought about the tattoos. They probably had an opinion.

  I twisted my lie of a ring and tried not to think about how hot his skin had felt, and how stupid and giggly his eyes made me feel.

  “I'm Sawyer Jones,” he said, offering me his hand to shake. He had a scar above his knuckles that stretched up to his thumb. I'd seen scars like that on guys who fought a lot—they got the scar from hitting someone in the mouth and having the guy's teeth slice the skin right open.

  His palm waited before me. I didn't want to touch him, but the other servers had been lecturing me about being friendlier. I couldn't understand why running back and forth with the right drinks and change wasn't enough for people.

  “Aubrey with a b, like auburn.”

  “Like your hair.”

  “My hair's just brown.”

  “And how old are you, Aubrey with a b?”

  “Old enough.”

  “Too young to be married.” He had a mischievous grin as he looked pointedly at my left hand.

  I shrugged. “Them's the breaks. Another beer?”

  He leaned forward, like he was about to get out of his chair, but didn't. “You going to be here a while?”

  I glanced at the imaginary watch that wasn't on my wrist. “Few more hours.”

  We were interrupted by some people yelling a few tables over. They were two guys from up north, down in the Lower Mainland for a court case, for “bullshit charges,” as one of them had told me. Every other word was profanity, and getting louder.

  Sawyer got up and slipped past me, heading in a straight line for their table. What the hell was wrong with him? You don't mess with guys who have nothing to lose. Those two were the human equivalent of a piece of shit car that you let go ahead of you on the road.

  I was scared for the guy, but then the strangest thing happened. As he got closer to their table, the two guys seemed to get smaller, shrinking into their chairs. Sawyer was tall, but not enormous, so it had to be his swagger alone that made him seem so intimidating.

  He was speaking low and quiet, so I couldn't make out what he was saying, but the two guys had wide eyes and kept nodding. He offered them his hand—the same hot hand I'd just held—and they each shook it respectfully.

  Dumbfounded, I just stood there, my jaw dropped.

  Sawyer came back to his table, a hint of a sexy smirk on his face. He looked eager for me to ask him what he'd said, but I wouldn't give him the satisfaction, even though I was dying to know.

  His face switched from sexy smirk to smug grin. “Just call me the Redneck Whisperer.”

  “Another beer?”

  “That sounds like a fine idea. One more, and I don't want to get out of control, so I promise I'll nurse it so I can keep you company the rest of your shift.” He looked pointedly at the two guys in their court-date finery, ties unfastened and shirts unbuttoned. They were both red-faced, but no longer belligerent. “I'll keep an eye on Rednecks One and Two over there for you.”

  “Oh, really?”

  He winked at me. “Yes, really.”

  I turned around to go pour the beer, a lightness in my face. Possibly the beginning of a genuine smile. It was kind of sweet to have someone looking out for me.

  The beer was only half-poured when the two rednecks got up and crossed over to the pool table. One of them could barely walk in a straight line, which meant it was time to cut him off, but the taller, skinny one glared at me with malevolence in his eyes.

  Great. My trouble was just beginning.

  Unfortunately for me, it was still early in the day. I was the only floor server on shift, so they were definitely my problem for the next hour.

>   I looked over at my uncle with pleading eyes, but he was busy sweating and grunting over a leaking line under the counter.

  “Hey, Uncle Bruce?”

  He didn't look up from where he was crouched. “Just call me Bruce. That other word makes me feel old. Makes my knees hurt.”

  “Which drink did you say was the best one for servers?”

  He put the wrench down and turned to look up at me. Unlike my mother and me, he didn't have blue eyes, but got the same amber-brown eyes as my Grandpa Jack. Bruce had the same dark, wavy hair and narrow nose that I inherited. My little sister Bell got lucky with blond hair and a button nose, but I got the Braun family traits. My uncle wasn't even forty, but he wore a thick, full beard that made him look older and tougher.

  Bruce scratched his neck, his lower lip jutting out. “Gin. Pace yourself. No more than one an hour.”

  “It's just that those guys are such assholes.”

  “A doctor doesn't hold back the medicine, kid. If those guys put you on edge, have a drink so you're on their level. It's what we do in the hospitality business.”

  “But you don't drink at work.”

  “Not where anyone can see me.”

  I poured myself a shot glass of gin, ducked down behind the bar, pretending to be retrieving something from the floor, and downed the gin shot in one swallow.

  “Like a champ,” Bruce said, and he offered me his fist to bump.

  The gin burned all the way down to my stomach, where it pooled as fire. Good fire.

  Twenty minutes later, I walked over to the rednecks with a bounce in my step. At my gentle suggestion, the shorter guy switched to beer, though the freaky guy with the buzz cut hair ordered a double rye and coke and told me he was “just getting started.”

  He paid for the round and gave me a generous tip.

  Muttering my thanks, I turned to get away quickly, but he called after me.

  “Hey, how much for a smile?”

  This was during the quiet part of the song playing over the stereo, and his voice carried through the bar. I stopped in place, my back to the guys.

  Over at his table, at the other end of the L-shaped pub, Sawyer looked up at me from his sketch book. I glared at him. If he hadn't told these guys to behave, they could have just had their rowdy time, but they'd had their pride injured. Their proud manhood challenged.

  How much for a smile?

  I treated the question as rhetorical and continued my way back to the bar. I felt safer behind the counter, able to breathe better thanks to the division of wood and stone.

  What was it with guys trying to make you smile? First they get you to smile, then they know they have power over you—the power to make you obey. Soon you do things you don't want to.

  Bruce looked up at me from under the counter. “Need me to bust some heads out there, or do you have it under control?”

  “I can handle a couple drunk rednecks.”

  He grinned, the upper part of his beard splitting along the knobby scar on his upper lip. My uncle had been born a premature baby, with a cleft palate. After Bruce was out of intensive care, they'd given him surgery to correct the split on his lip and the roof of his mouth. Now he wore a partial denture with false teeth bridging the gap, but his lips didn't quite match up. He probably thought the beard gave him camouflage, but it only made people more curious. So it always goes with secrets—the cover story becomes the clue.

  “Not rednecks. We call them customers,” he said, gently correcting me.

  “Maybe I'll marry one of them.”

  Bruce's expression was caught between horror and laughter. “I can never tell if you're joking.”

  “Me neither.”

  Bruce raised his eyebrows in amusement. “You gotta roll with the punches, kid. People come here to get away from all that civility nonsense. Suits and ties and bullshit. I've never worn a tie in my life, and I don't plan to, not even at my funeral.”

  “What about at your wedding?”

  He laughed. “Who'd marry me? Women want tall, good-looking guys, like my friend Sawyer over there with the sketch book. He's been watching you like you're HBO.”

  “Don't change the topic. Why don't you have a girlfriend? You have your own business.”

  “Why don't you have a boyfriend?”

  “Because I'm raising a little girl who doesn't need strange guys hanging around, confusing her.”

  “Did… your mother do that a lot?”

  That familiar lump of anger started up my throat. The alcohol warming my blood made it seem possible for me to forgive her, and I didn't like that. I would always love my mother, but I would never forgive her.

  Bruce got a phone call and disappeared to the office.

  I sliced up a couple more limes. We didn't need any more, but I liked the clean smell.

  The bar started to fill up over the next hour, and one of the other servers started her shift. To my relief, she took the pool table side, rednecks and all.

  Sawyer kept trying to talk to me, but I was pissed at him, pissed at the whole world. I just wanted to get through the night.

  Toward the end of my shift, my purple-haired coworker Lana came up and wrapped her arm around my waist. Lana was a very touchy person, putting her arm around me at least once every shift we shared. She was older than me, in her thirties, and she had a teenage son. Her wedding ring was real, unlike mine. I liked her, so I tried not to shudder and pull away from her half-hug.

  “Wanna earn some easy money?” she asked.

  “I told you, Lana, I'll babysit for you any time.”

  She laughed and tossed back her dyed-purple hair. “My cutie-pies at the pool table are makin' ridiculous bets.” Lana flashed me her easy grin, her round cheeks dimpling. “They're gettin' me to ask you to go humor them. They'll give you a hundred bucks if you sink a ball.”

  I tried not to gag over her referring to them as cutie-pies. “Forget it. Fuck those guys.”

  “You won't lose, though. And if you do, you won't lose money.” She grinned and nodded in their direction. “Just go over there.”

  I looked around for Bruce, but he was deep in conversation with some regulars at the bar.

  The two rednecks had become a group of five at the pool table, all chanting, “Aubrey, Aubrey!”

  Lana told them my name? I sincerely wished I'd made up a fake name for working at the bar. It felt so invasive to have people I didn't know using my name, acting like I was their friend.

  One of the guys put a pile of rumpled bills on the edge of the table. A hundred dollars.

  The skinny guy handed me a pool cue and taunted me with his hateful glare. “Sink that shot and you get that money,” he said.

  “What if I don't make the shot?”

  “If you lose, you have to give me a big smile.”

  “Fine.”

  I approached the pool table. Everyone got quiet, all eyes on me.

  I leaned down and looked at the balls. The orange ball was in the easiest position, so I leaned forward and rested the cue on my knuckles.

  “Not that one,” the guy said, angling to get behind me as his friends all leered, practically slobbering at the prospect of me leaning over the pool table. “The green. Corner pocket.”

  “Fine.”

  “Get ready to smile.”

  I tried to focus on the shot, to block out the noise of the bar, but that only made me more aware of my heart pounding and my hands sweating. I wiped my palms on my black skirt and leaned forward again.

  Everything felt wrong. My arms felt wrong, and my legs were shaking. When was the last time I'd eaten? Was this the kind of shot that seems easy, but the white ball just follows the other down the pocket?

  I was so focused on the shot, I didn't notice the guy moving up on me until it was too late, and he had his body behind me and his hands on my ass.

  I grabbed one of the pool balls and wheeled around, ready to hit him with it.

  The dirtbag was down on the floor, and a tattooed arm flash
ed before me as Sawyer pulled away from the man. One punch, and the guy was already down, holding his hands up and apologizing. Sawyer looked furious, but in control.

  Holy shit, that happened fast.

  Lana was there, breathless and patting my hand.

  “Honey, you all right? I just saw it happening from over there and we came right over. They were getting a little handsy, but that was out of line.” Her eyes were wide and sympathetic.

  Sawyer and the guy's friend were already hauling the man up and out by his armpits. I wanted to kick him, but stayed back with Lana.

  “I think my shift is over,” I said.

  “Get on home, then! I'll see to your section's tabs. It's the least I can do for sending you over here like this.”

  People were staring, and someone was pointing a cell phone our way, taking a photo or video. Or maybe just checking their email. I couldn't tell, but I felt suspicious.

  My head was buzzing from the adrenaline. I darted behind the bar to grab my purse, and ran out the back door, on the opposite side of the building as the entrance. Walking wasn't fast enough. Hearing nothing but the sound of my feet on the pavement and my own breathing was all I needed to clear my head.

  How could I have been so stupid? Bruce had mentioned that he needed to get a mirror put up in that corner of the bar. I should have known those guys were trouble, but I'd lost my senses for what… a hundred dollars. Or the promise of it. And what if he'd tried to do more than grab my ass? I didn't want to think about it.

  Someone was running after me, calling my name.

  I thought maybe it was Bruce, but it was Sawyer, gaining on me.

  Chapter Two

  “Oh, just leave me alone!” I yelled back at Sawyer. “I'm fine.”

  “Let me walk you home!”

  I stopped and wheeled around, ready to lay into him. It was all his fault. He'd gotten those guys riled up in the first place with his little talk.

  As he got closer, I saw he had blood on his knuckles.

  The world started to get blacker than it already was, the starry sky pulling itself into one small speck of light. My knees buckled.

  I dropped to the grass, and he sat right next to me.